sometimes, i must remember myself there are moments of incorruptible beauty on the earth.
like this one:


Rrose – The Surgeon General (Her Insides Laid Bare)
Function & Vatican Shadow - Things Known
Brando Lupi - Egg Shaped
Patrick Chardronnet - Random Beauty
Ntogn & Luigi Tozzi - Wsjr (Orphx remix)
Eomac - I Am Starting To Believe
Korridor - Binocular Observer (Ness remix)
Schlomo - Grounded Queen
PVS - Collateral Damage (Max_M remix)
Slam - Cirklon Bells (Edit Select remix)

Michelangelo behind a Macbook

"You ruin your life by tolerating it. At the end of the day you should be excited to be alive. When you settle for anything less than what you innately desire, you destroy the possibility that lives inside of you, and in that way you cheat both yourself and the world of your potential. 
The next Michelangelo could be sitting behind a Macbook right now writing an invoice for paperclips, because it pays the bills, or because it is comfortable, or because he can tolerate it. Do not let this happen to you. Do not ruin your life this way. Life and work, and life and love, are not irrespective of each other. They are intrinsically linked. We have to strive to do extraordinary work, we have to strive to find extraordinary love. Only then will we tap into an extraordinarily blissful life." 
—Bianca Sparacino, How To Ruin Your Life (Without Even Noticing That You Are)

painting by Alexandra Levasseur




porque me dóis?
porque me afundo em ti?
porque te quero se me enegreces por dentro?
porque pingo sangue frio?
porque arde o teu gelo no fogo da minha paixão?
porque te quero longe, se vives em mim?

porque te nego, se te desejo?
porque me dás sombra, ó meu sol que costumavas ser?
porque sofro por ti, tu que eras a minha cura?
porque te espero, se desejo a tua partida?
porque te afasto, aproximando-me?

poquê o doloroso vazio do quase depois da experiência do comum?
porquê adiar o inevitável?

porque te digo adeus como a um sonho estranho?

coimbra, 27.01.15
adeus, s.

things (un)know

goodbye, s.





"Learning how to leave people alone and go on with your life is a needed skill. You must master it." 
—Raegan Mathis

drawing by lucjan_

para uma vida não monótona

"This is how I see it. As an artist it is my responsibility to not have a boring life. To feel deeply. To listen to the stories of strangers. To try new things and go new places. To say yes. To question everything. To find beauty in the commonplace. And to fall in love. Over and over. Because through the highs of love and the lows of heartbreak I truly know what it is to feel." —nirrimi 

© antónio alves
figueira da foz, janeiro 2025


artwork : adam martinakis 


vou tentar. prometo.


word of the day: almost

"Almost. It’s a big word for me. I feel it everywhere. Almost home. Almost happy. Almost changed. Almost, but not quite. Not yet. Soon, maybe." — Joan Bauer

artwork by Layne Charlotte



"There is one simple thing wrong with you – you think you have plenty of time … If you don’t think your life is going to last forever, what are you waiting for ? Why the hesitation to change? You don’t have time for this display, you fool. This, whatever you’re doing now, may be your last act on earth. It may very well be your last battle. There is no power which could guarantee that you are going to live one more minute." 
—Carlos Castañeda

artwork by Seung-Hwan Oh a.k.a. Tonio Oh


falling in love

what falling in love is like? 
It’s to do with knowing and being known. I remember how it stopped seeming odd that in biblical Greek, knowing was used for making love. Whosit knew so-and-so. Carnal knowledge. It’s what lovers trust each other with. Knowledge of each other, not of the flesh but through the flesh, knowledge of self, the real him, the real her, in extremis, the mask slipped from the face. Every other version of oneself is on offer to the public. We share our vivacity, grief, sulks, anger, joy… we hand it out to anybody who happens to be standing around, to friends and family with a momentary sense of indecency perhaps, to strangers without hesitation. Our lovers share us with the passing trade. But in pairs we insist that we give ourselves to each other. What selves? What’s left? What else is there that hasn’t been dealt out like a deck of cards? Carnal knowledge. Personal, final, uncompromised. Knowing, being known. I revere that. Having that is being rich, you can be generous about what’s shared — she walks, she talks, she laughs, she lends a sympathetic ear, she kicks off her shoes and dances on the tables, she’s everybody’s and it don’t mean a thing, let them eat cake; knowledge is something else, the undealt card, and while it’s held it makes you free-and-easy and nice to know, and when it’s gone everything is pain. Every single thing. Every object that meets the eye, a pencil, a tangerine, a travel poster. As if the physical world has been wired up to pass a current back to the part of your brain where imagination glows like a filament in a lobe no bigger than a torch bulb. Pain. 
Tom Stoppard, The Real Thing (1982)

new perspective

"Every individual has a different perspective on life. Many see it as the threshold to a new beginning with an abundance of opportunities. Others see it as a messy, mundane hell. 
As humans we should question every little detail. Is the glass half empty or half full? Does the glass even exists? 
It’s interesting how one’s own mind perceives an object, idea, or a person in a way others would never see without proper navigation. The perception of love can be a fairytale dream, but a tortuous, never-ending nightmare to others. Death is either glorified or feared. 
Next time you are outside, acknowledge your surroundings. Look up at the sky and take in the beauty or the drawbacks of life. Realize how you normally see the world, and try to look at it differently. Life is too short to be normal and monotonous. 
You only grow old if you let life age you. Let the ocean waves tell you its secrets and experience life in a whole new perspective.” 

"Perspective", John Mancilla

photo by Neville Caulfield


kissing the sun

The Young Gods - Kissing the Sun
Soon we will be on our way
Say goodbye to yesterday

Soon we will be in the light
Swimming in the open sky 

We'll spread our wings around the stars
Watch the way we drop our scars

We will be kissing the sun
Everybody knows kissing the sun
One and one with the one you've chosen

We'll spread our wings as we get higher
Spread our wings into the fire

We will be kissing the sun
Everybody knows kissing the sun
One and one
And the thing explodes

para a s.


por vezes, é necessário termos a coragem para assumir o risco
desde que o queiramos assumir.

para a s.



"Yes, terrible things happen, but sometimes those terrible things - they save you.” — Chuck Palahniuk, Haunted

"Fear doesn't shut you down; it wakes you up” ― Veronica Roth, Divergent


do all things with love, but don't romanticize life like you can’t survive without it

para o primeiro dia de 2015:

"There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. 
There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn't need to be painful or empty. 
You need to fill yourself up with love. 
Not anyone else. 
Become a whole being on your own. 
Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. 
Do all things with love, but don't romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. 
Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful, I promise." - by Emery Allen

photo by Andrea Tomas Prato
adeus, s.

happy 2015